Journey Down The Road - My Story

"Thinking back on life and all that i went through, some needless and some worth while now that i glance back. Growing up and going through everything kids do. Then came the newer experiences of those teen years and not even noticing or seeing where i went off into. Another direction that wasn't at all so normal anymore or all that smart for me to even do...but i was curious"

Where do i even begin?

It seemed the experience with gangs and fighting and the drinking and the drugs, made everything so unfocused at that early age and it didn't even begin to clear until my 21st year here on earth. I would soon be making a decision i was forced into and i did not like it! But the circumstances left me very little option if any.

Either it would be my death or someone else or life in a prison, and that was about it for this hard kid. There were no other ways out as far as i could see, so at that time without knowing it my choice would turn out to be a life saving and a life changing decision, one that would take me away from where all my problems lingered and really weighted me down, into a far off land where i would be a complete stranger knowing no one and to where i could eventually take a deep sigh and now begin to think clearly. Thinking was apparently something i really didn't do much of only because i was too preoccupied with all the wrong thoughts that crowded and clouded my tired mind.

Living fast and hard really wears one down sooner... or later.
I was worn out ! A now 21 yr. old that felt like 40 something.
I knew i needed a change in my life but what, i really had no clue and I just wasn't sure what to even do or start with.
Now, one thing I did know was that as far as God went, "religion" left a really bad taste in my mouth and i saw through it and how it wasn't at all for me, period! What I didn't know was that in my ignorance God wasn't at all about religion or "acting" religious but much more about a one to one relationship and a very personal one at that!
Alien as that sounds to many..... its true.
But for me to swallow that concept took awhile to grasp or even begin to accept, so I searched out more and more about this unknown (to me) kinda lifestyle.

I knew my own lifestyle and how to be tough and hard and cold but i didn't know the other side of my heart. The part that was deep down and tucked away somewhere and I didn't really care to... until now. All i figured was that if there was such a wonderful loving Father called God or Jesus, he would just have to prove himself to this not so easily fooled homeboy. Given the chance, he would do just that !
Being offered the chance to escape from my own madness...
I signed up for that last chance!
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